things that i took for granted.

~i always think that marriage is a simple process.

lol.hell yeah!

i even add 'kahwin muda' to my wishlist.

its not that im gatal or anything, its just that we've been together like 3 plusplus years,

so mmg la ada rs nak memiliki tu.haha,

but then, lps tgk abg ak nak kawen ni, ak pun mcm haihh, nak kawen pn susah la!

abg ak baru nikah, kenduri hjg bulan.ni pun ak tgk mak ak dh pening kpla bagai.

so, from now on,

dont ever think that getting married is easy!

~i tend to procrastinate all my tutos, assignments and everything that got to do with my studies.

im a lazy bump!really!

~i dont know how to cook.

but then, still gatal nak kawen kn?haha,

but, im willing to learn la.

ill try to update more la lps ni.

huhu, sorry im using manglish. >.<

i just..dont know!

first post for 2012.ahaha, lambat kn ak?

ntah laa..stres la these few days.

i dont think that 2012 will be my year to shine.

ya ALLAH,

Kau permudahkanla segala urusan ak.

i really need to get good grades for my exam.

myself :)

1-names that ppl use to call me:

~syuhaidah, nama ni org pgl dr darjah1 sampai form5.nama penuh ok..haha,

~eda, kalo ikutkan dulu nama ni abg n angah ak je y pgl.

but then, start plkn ak suh org pgl eda je, sampai lpa skang kat uitm.

dulu masa mula2 org pgl eda, serius ak lmbt tgkp!myb sbb dah besa kot org pgl nm penuh.

~syu, ha..y ni exceptional case la!sbb nm ni most of besties kat kulim ni ja y pgl.y plg kerap pgl cmni fatin,zatie,huda..org kulim ja la!

~kakak, y ni family ak ja pgl.eksklusif okayy :)

~kaklang, since ak anak ke3 kn?lang la,sama dgn arwah tok ak :')

ramai y pgl ak kaklang cam spupu ak, even makcik2 kaki gosip kt blkg umah ak ni pun pgl ak kaklang.ha, hg ada?xda kn... >..<

ada byk lg nm y org pgl ak.selain drpd y duk weyh,hoi suma tu, da org pgl ak ida la, aida la.

bkn xsuka, tp nm tu suma pompuan sgt la.nm tu cam eww2 sgt la dgn ak.so not me!

***

2-suka budak2, especially babies.tp still xtaw how to handle them.

mak ak ngasuh 2org bdk, tp dah besar skit la.dlm 2,3 thn camtu.

kalo mood ak ok, then its ok la nak rengek2 manja bagai.ni mood ak swing pun duk wat hegeh2, mmg rs nak tampaqqq la kn?haih, nm pun budak2.sabaq ja la =..='

***

3-cpt marah, kurang sabar, 

yeah, i know.tp skang dah kurang kot perangai2 buruk ni.

depend on situations laa..

***

4-overthink, overreact. jyeahh!im over the pagar, always..

the lost.

seriously, xsangka kehilangan org y kita betul2 care, betul2 sayang tu menyakitkan kn?

kita xkan rs kecuali bila kita dah alami sndri.

bila org y hadap benda ni, kita leh ckp kat depa2 suma 'sabar, apa pun jd mst ada hikmahnya..'

tp bila kita y ada kat tempat tu, baru kita taw susahnya nak sabar, susahnya nak reda..

wani penah kata, 

"nak redha tu susah sgt eda..susah sgt!"

pecaya la wani, eda taw mcm mn susahnya nak redha.

cuma situasi kita ja beza2.

mcm mn nak redha, bila org y tinggal kn kita tu slma ni slu ada dgn kita xkira apa pn jd.

trima kita seadanya, baik buruk kita, suma dia trima.

tp skang, tiba2 ja, xda apa2 petanda, tanpa ucapan selamat tinggal pun,

dia tinggal kita..

camtu jaa..dia xpenah blk, sampai skang.

nak xnak,kena trima.xda org y mati leh hidup blk kn?

kak rindu sgt kat tok, rindu sgt.

farewell 2011 :')

things that i'll keep in my mind, 2011..

alhamdulillah:

~result exam ok, pointer x drop.xda repeat paper even gred plg truk pun C, cukup2 makan namanya.ahaha,

~our relationship cukup 3 thn lah 2011 ni, hope the number will keep on counting. <3

~first time pakai cincin y org bg.yelaa, sblm ni pakai y bli sendiri jek.yeah, my life is pathetic.

cik wanie, bkn cincin tanda ok? :)

~tkr handphone, twice!format my toshi2, twice gak kot!menghabiskan duit namanya ni.

ya ALLAH, kuatkan ak:

~i lost my tok.the same day ak abis final for sem 3.kalo ikutkan,hr ni dah 2bulan 23hr tok meninggal.x sangka,hr ni gak tok ngah,abg kpd tok ak meninggal.innalillah..

long time no seeee... :)

ok fine!

long time no see is grammatically error kn?ahaha,

whatever!

adik ak dah bising ak x update blog.

wee.kinda bz lately!

oh my,never thought that sem4 seSUSAH ni.

ya ALLAH,kuat kan la semangat ak utk bertahan lg.

at least sampai praktikal.

bg la ak passion utk study benda2 y lgsg xda tempat dlm hati ak!ahaks,

ok,mmg byk benda nak story :)

STUDY:

sem4 ni suma subjek core.

tp still ada lg subject from other faculty cam ekonomi,

mmg susah sgt nak harung sem ni. :(

lps abis 1 tuto,dtg pulak assignment berlambak2.

yes i admit!

this sem ak rs ak dah transform into a whole new person.

fine, exaggerate skit >..<

im putting in more effort sbb subjek sem ni sumanya 

NOT-my-taste!

byg kan la, noob komputer cam ak ni terpaksa cepat2 tangkap dlm klas crs.

yes,computer reservation system.

everything nak kena pakai keyboard,

mmg lmbt la kn? =..='

tu x cita lg klas manualnya,haih..

nak kena kira harga tiket KUL LON DXB. RIO PAR LON.

nak kena hafal all those 3-letter code countries bagai.

sabaq ja laa.. =..='

ekonomi lg la,im not complaining!

ahaha,ntah la..cam xphm ja apa y miss tu ajar.

ms ong penah pesan,dia lect baru kot..kamu suma jgn la demotivate dia.

mslhnya,ak y demotivate!wat kuiz hr tu,mmg ak xleh wat lgsg!habuk!

mak: dah la..dah wat kn benda tu,jgn pk dah.

me: tp t result cam pfftt...

***

him: xpala,t try lg..

me: ........ =..='

(dlm hati: how the hell am i going to "try lg"?)

eco120 is killing me silently..

its eating me up inside. :(

i dont know why,lately asyik ingat arwah tok.

sampai termimpi2,nangis bagai.

the dream is not real,but the tears are real.no doubt.

i guess i miss her too much. :'(

my bloggie new look! ^^,

thanx to lyssa for the superb header :)

thanx to adik who editted my bloggie >.<

so

hopefully after this,

ak lebih kerap berblogging, ye dak?

huhu,